Your Vibrational Offering

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Today’s inspiration comes from Day 218 of  Manifest Your Desires: 365 Ways to Make Your Dreams A Reality by Esther and Jerry Hicks. Enjoy!

“Whenever you are looking for things to appreciate, you have control of your own vibrational offering and your own point of attraction; but when you are responding to the way others seem to feel about you, you have no control…You do not know what happened to them today, and you do not (know)  how they are living, so you cannot understand why they react to you in the way they do-and you cannot control it.  However, when you are more interested in how you feel than how they feel about you, you do have control of your experience.”

Pitfall #4 to Conscious Co-Creation (Part 3)

Today’s inspiration comes from Part 3 of Chapter 9 of my e-book, Afraid Of Our Own Shadow: A Manifesto and Guide to Conscious Co-Creation. Enjoy!

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Chapter 9: Pitfall #4 to Conscious Co-Creation (Part 3)

I witnessed one seemingly caring conscious brother, after realizing there would be no throne for him to sit upon in this line of work, become not only bitter, but an opportunist. I mean, even to the point of semi pimping women and hustling that corporate job because as he put it, “Hell, I got bills to pay and all them ignorant pork eating brothers and sisters ain’t worth the hassle.”

I witnessed another conscious sister become spiteful. After just making good love and a good meal for her man, she returned home having forgotten something for work, only to find him in bed with another women. She became so hateful that she didn’t even want to hear anything, much less see anybody talking that conscious stuff!

I witnessed for miles and miles, many conscious brothers and sisters, after the novelty wore off of being in rebellion to their parents, have their house of consciousness flatten by the storm, since, in the first place, they were not build with the psychological foundation that is necessary to change a world paradigm. Having become parents themselves, I watched them all go back to the same religion, philosophies and diets that they talked so negatively about when it was fashionable and drove their parents crazy.

So, that was the first storm, you can say a category 2 for me. The second cycle of change that came around to awaken me was more like a category 5 and I wasn’t hardly as prepared for that one.

It took me awhile to realize it, but I was mad and suffered great heartbreak from my elders. Not my parents or the elders that I thought didn’t know better, but the elders that went around in the community professing to be all knowing and therefore, I thought knew better. No one ever told me, and it would years later before I realized that elders hid behind their broken hearts too, and criticizing the youth for all the problems, was the way they cried, much like anger was the way men cried, of which I’d also find out.

Yet, at the time, it was virtually inconceivable to me that my elders with knowledge or in authority positions would actually sell out and deliberately thwart the youth’s progress for money, a personal agenda, and more accurately (for what I know now), their own broken hearts. I guess you can call my person naïve, but around that age of 21, I had no immunity to the fact that elders that I held in high esteem could say one thing and do another and I became bitter.

Now This is VERY Important:

BECAUSE, I wasn’t aware of my broke heart, this would pave the way for a lot of what I drew to me, in regards to elders constantly letting me down. My mind computer had accepted this reality as the gospel truth and as a result kept churning out more of this faulty reality in my experiences to validate it. The sad part was that because my heart was broke and my person DIDN’T KNOW IT, I was powerless to do anything about it. Powerless from having my 90 percent heart power pierce through this veil of illusion to create another reality.

Yet, like my auntie used to say, “What don’t kill you, makes you stronger.” During this 19 year cycle of inwardly searching and seeming societal scorn, G.O.D and my Higher Self, were gently guiding and getting me ready for what would become my greatest gifts.

This period helped me to gain perspective on why my so-called conscious elders said what they said and did what they did. It gave me the needed motivation to use my gifts to dig deeper, beyond what was commonly accepted knowledge, theory, and perspective, to create my own theory, The Bellony Theory, of which I’ll be sharing in my forthcoming book, It’s All G.O.D: A Conscious Creator’s Guide to Healing the Effects of White Supremecy.

So, with that said, let’s move into my great resource:

Proverbs Chapter 4 v23 says, “Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.” I heard this verse mentioned when I was listening to an interview with Dr. Alex Lloyd, founder of The Healing Codes. He quoted this verse to bring home how science is only now coming to realize how essentially true this ancient proverb is. Dr. Lloyd pointed out that healing lies neither in alternative nor allopathic medicine, and that essentially there is no long term healing without healing our cellular memories and especially the ones that we don’t even know we have!

The resource I want to share with you was founded by another good doctor, Dr. Bradley Nelson, founder of The Body Code. I mention Dr. Nelson here because he developed a fascinating system that uses the power of our bodies to tap into the collective subconscious to locate what he calls trapped emotions AND the power of magnets used along what’s called the governing channel in acupuncture to clear them. These two powerful, yet super simple techniques combined have been meeting with GREAT success. I share this resource because I know just how important it is for us to clear all these barriers and blockages that we don’t even consciously know we have around our hearts in order to step into the 90 percent heart space of potential and power. So that was Pitfall #4 (I told you it was a biggie!). Next, we’ll be covering Step #6.

Pitfall #4 to Conscious Co-Creation (Part 2)

Today’s inspiration comes from Part 2 of Chapter 9 of my e-book, Afraid Of Our Own Shadow: A Manifesto and Guide to Conscious Co-Creation. Enjoy!

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Chapter 9: Pitfall #4 to Conscious Co-Creation (Part 2)

Before I end, I want to share a powerful personal story, as well as a powerful resource. So, let’s begin with my story:

In 1986 in Orange County, California, I started a Black Heritage Club at my high school where there was less than 2 percent African-Americans. I was around 15years old and on fire because I had recently been gifted with the knowledge of my rich ancestral heritage and contribution to the Americas, as well as the world. And, I just want to say, you have to know this was a GREAT gift for my person’s self-esteem at that age, being that I grew up in a very racist community and school system where Black history began with slavery and then ended up with a brief mention of Martin Luther King, Jr. I received this gift from my brother who was attending Cal State Long Beach and was taking a class with Dr. Maulana Karenga, the founder of the African-American holiday, Kwanzaa. I was around 12 or 13 at this time, and I noticed that my brother was walking taller and always preaching to the family, about one thing or the other. Some of my family thought he was crazy, but I was curious. In my inductive childhood reasoning, I noticed that whatever was causing this change in him had to do with the books that he was always reading and carrying around, so I decided that I would read them for myself to find out what was going on.

Well, that opened my mind to a whole new world, and I was never the same again. Learning about my heritage changed my C minus average to a B plus and transformed my person from an insecure “nobody” to one of the most well known, actively involved students on campus. However, I was a little overzealous in my quest to “uplift my people.”

I used to go around campus with this heavy African-American almanac that I stole from the public library, quoting all the things that Black people had invented from the filament in the light bulb to the blood transfusion. I also used to hunt down all my classmates to make sure they’d come to our weekly club meetings. Looking back, yes, I wanted my classmates to feel the same sense of pride that wasn’t afforded us growing up Black in the OC, yet there was another, subtle underlined need that said, “If my classmates could experience the same pride I’m now feeling, in return they will love ME and be thankful to ME for providing this knowledge” Mistake #1! For as we already covered, the subconscious desire was based on my need of getting energy from another rather than Godsource via the act of self love of my inner family.

It was no wonder that the more I chased after my classmates, the more they ran away. Understanding this universal principle, they had to run, even if they didn’t know why! Something about my energy was needy, desperate. I was going on 17 when I had my first aha! moment about this. Now that I think back on it, this revelation must have come out of my true desire to understand why was it my efforts were being thwarted, when all I consciously wanted to do was good.

I’ll never forget the moment when the understanding hit me like a blow to the chest. I was on my way to the school cafeteria and a voice from within said, “If you are to do this work, if you are to share this message, it can’t be for anything else but the sheer love of it, not for the gratitude or appreciation of your classmates.” From that point on, my whole perspective changed and I could take my personal desires out of the mix a little more. I say “a little more,” because like I stated earlier, growth and actualization is an on-going process that happens… in cycles and cycles.

Yet, it was great because it gave me a little more understanding, so that by the time I went off to the historically Black University, North Carolina Central and founded a women’s service organization called Alkebu-lan Sisters, I was better prepared for what unfolded. I was able to watch with just a little more insight, empathy, and understanding, when other of my colleagues started learning knowledge of self. Depending on where their initial heartbreak happened, or depending on where their inner family wasn’t being nurtured, there would lie the psychosis, ready to rear its ugly head. For example, if it was a heartbreak based on ageism from their parents, then getting involved in this knowledge was fulfilling in that it was used to wage war against their parents in angry rebellion to all the restrictions and lies they were fed growing up.

If it was an inner family issue and the person had lack of self-worth, acknowledgment and appreciation issues, for men, it usually showed up as an overcompensation of the inner warrior, who used this information to be better, bigger and more knowledgeable than the next man. For women, it usually showed up as the self importance she felt from being so and so’s lady or the energy she received from being praised as the supportive, self sacrificing sistah.

Now let me say here, it’s not that anything my colleagues were doing was actually right or wrong. No action is inherently right or wrong in and of itself. Yet it is why we are doing what we are doing, our subconscious intentions that determines the results.

So, I sat back and watched all of these subtle subconscious motivations play out in others and myself as if I was doing a study. For those astrologers out there, I guess I don’t have Pluto in Virgo and a Scorpio Ascendant both at 29 degrees for nothing.

Anyway, what was my conclusion? Well, if I was to liken the cycles of change, the cosmic bill paying of the universe, to that of a hurricane, then what I witnessed after the storm were a few houses left standing. Although, my house survived that cycle of change because of the preparation I had in high school, there was another cyclical storm on the horizon that I’ll talk about in a minute that I was way less prepared for. Before, I do let me tell you about the devastation from this cycle…

Remembering Maya, Remembering Mama

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After I read this post from veteran blogger Awesomely Luvvie, I immediately recalled Oprah’s 2013 interview with Maya Angelou discussing her 34th book about her mother. Then at age 85, Dr. Angelou talked about her special bond with her mother, Vivian Baxter. My mother was alive when I watched this interview, and I remember thinking how much the relationship between Maya and her mama reminded me of my relationship with my mother. Like Maya, my mother also wanted a daughter and almost gave up, before I arrived on the scene as her “only daughter” as she was fond of saying. So, as I salute these Shining Sistahs with Swords , these phenomenal woman of wisdom, I am especially reminded of how powerfully potent the last quote in this post truly is. Enjoy!

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Maya Angelou: Rise in Power After Living in Purpose

  May 28, 2014 | Luvvie

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Maya Angelou is gone and I was not ready. I wasn’t ready because I just figured Mother Maya would stay to give us more words. I figured she’d stay forever and just continue to be magic. I’m so selfish because she’s given more than enough.

I don’t think I have the right words to speak about Marguerite Johnson the Beloved. I don’t know if there is a right way to memorialize someone whose words are like life’s manual. What do you say about the woman who touched nations? What can articulate the impact of her being? I don’t even have the vocabulary for it.

Maya Angelou didn’t write poetry. She WAS poetry. Her whole being was in beautiful prose.

Maya is (not was) a Queen, especially to us Black girls. In her struggles you saw yours but in her power, you also found yours. In her vulnerability, you ached to let yours show and in her confidence, you fist pumped because yours could look like hers.

She told us revolutionary things, like we are worth love in every way. We can give it, we can receive it, and we can wear it like a coat and not be ashamed by it. That woman sat there and told the world “You will love me, even though you might not want to. You will deal!” And people did!


I can barely memorize 2 phone numbers but I’ve memorized plenty of things Dr. Maya Angelou said. Her words are like music because when you hear them, they speak straight to your heart. Before your brain even registers it, your chest swells. And your soul says “YESSSS! I needed that.”

As a woman, as a Black woman, as a writer, Maya told me I owed it to myself to live life loudly and boldly. It wasn’t just something I should do, it’s something I MUST do.

“My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with passion, some compassion, some humor and some style.”

Maya Angelou walked in her purpose. That’s clear. So mourning her is really for our benefit. She did what she needed and wanted to, like Nelson Mandela and the other greats before her. She will never really die because she left her spirit behind in the work she’s done.

Watch the video below (from Maya’s LifeClass on OWN), and get your entire LIFE from Mother Maya’s wisdom.

My favorite quote from here is: “I have to know that the brute, the bigot and the batterer are all children of God, whether they know it or not.”

There’s power in knowing that you lived life well and good. Maya did that, and the caged bird is free.

What great things can be said about Maya Angelou that’ll suffice? None of it will be enough. But we speak her name with the utmost respect. Mother, Poet, Activist, Writer, Giver of Verbal Life, Dream Enabler, Giant, Goddess, Queen, Matron Saint of Get Life Right.

Mother Maya, girl. Listen. You phenomenal portrait of poise. You bombastically brilliant, bright, blazing symbol of bravery and goodness. You epic, life-affirming, life-changing, life-loving, life-living, luminous luminary.

Stay rising, sis. You did so good and we thank you for it. Rise rise rise in power.


Pitfall #4 to Conscious Co-Creation (Part 1)

Today’s inspiration comes from Chapter 9 of my e-book, Afraid Of Our Own Shadow: A Manifesto and Guide to Conscious Co-Creation. Enjoy!

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Chapter 9: Pitfall #4 to Conscious Co-Creation

In this chapter, we’ll be covering the “biggie,” the fourth pitfall to Becoming a Conscious Co-Creator.

Pitfall #4

Attempting to Co-Create Without Healing Our Broken Hearts

In recent times, many studies and research has been done to prove what was considered common knowledge in ancient times, and that is the importance of living with a light and open heart.

The ancient Egyptians or Kemetians believed that when you died, you traveled to the Hall of the Dead, where your heart was weighed against the feather of Maat, the goddess of Justice. If your heart was lighter than the feather, you lived forever, but if it wasn’t you were devoured by the demon Ammit.

According to Gregg Braden, a popular author bridging the gap between ancient wisdom and technology, the heart is about a 100 times stronger electrically, and up to 5000 times stronger magnetically, than the brain, making it the strongest generator of both electrical and magnetic fields in the body.

Master Lin, founder of Spring Forest Qigong, once said in an interview that 90 percent of our power comes from our heart and only 10 percent comes from our mind. The mind is important in that it helps to direct the heart energy; however, until we have the courage to stay in our heart space, none of that power is available to us.

There are three main societal wounds that I want to mention here that can prevent conscious co-creation, because they serve as the platform or playground where most all initial heart breaks occur. These wounds are racism, sexism, and ageism. For those who are not familiar, ageism is discrimination based on one’s age and it can be viewed as a generational occurrence between elders and the youth, but of course that’s not the only way. It’s my contention that the more we as a collective heal these societal wounds, the less heart break would occur on the planet.

Since our minds are good at tricking us, we usually make rationalization for our actions, never admitting when we’ve hardened or closed our hearts.

Here’s a great indicator or first sign to determine when your heart might be broken:

When you start to talk negatively about a principle, a person or a people, that you once held in high enough regard to truly live your life for.

I learned this jewel from my mom when I was home from college one year and was feeling quite worn out and let down buy my elders and people who I thought should know better in the “conscious” community. There I was, slouched in my chair, clearly in a defeatist position, going on and on saying things like, “People don’t want to change, all they want to do is talk that mess!”

My mom took one look at me and my energy and said, “You know you have to really watch yourself, when the things you once used to care about, you are now talking negatively about.” Those words hit hard and rang true for me, even though at the time, I acted like they didn’t and blew them off.

Essentially, we can only do any action and think any thought in life in one of two places, and that is- inside our heart space or outside our heart space. When we think and act from the heart, we are able to see beyond the veil of illusion and create more good in our lives, in cycles and cycles. When we don’t, we fail prey to our unknown subconscious desires and manipulation from what Eckhart Tolle calls the collective pain body.

It would take me 19 years to understand that the greatest gift G.O.D granted me was to thwart my long-term career, intimate relationship, and financial success, so that I could first understand and then begin healing all the ways my heart had been broken over the years. If I were to have had long term financial success in my career and in my intimate relationships first without dealing with my broken heart, it would have been based on a false perception and wrong intention that no matter how vile or virtuous it may have looked like on the outside, would only be taking me further away for my true heart desires.

I can see this so clearly NOW. But at the time, I subconsciously thought my G.O.D and my Guides had forsaken me, adding another heartbreak to the mix. So essentially, for about a 19 year cycle, I have been going through smaller cycles of self evaluation, learning and perceptional growth that has helped me to heal and to appreciate where I am today.

Getting to Know Daisy Quiz

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Okay, so here is where I get to find out if anyone has actually been reading any of the things I’ve been posting about “Crazy Daisy” as we used to call her. Below is an interactive “Daisy Trivia Quiz” video and I need your help! Just press play on the video and you’ll be asked a series of questions about the life and times of “Mrs. Daisy.” You will immediately get to see your result and how you placed among other participants. If you need a Daisy refresher, make sure to do this before the quiz by going to the categories side bar and choosing “Pushing Daisy Tuesday Tribute” in the drop down menu to get all of the posts I’ve ever done on my mom in one place. Good luck!

Diasy Drive Donors

* David King  * William Scott, Jr.  *Janice Donovan  * Isaac Causey *Sharonda Caldwell  * LaVerne Freemon  * Lumumba Corriette  * Cher Hermschulte  *Camara Barbara Knight

Remember, it’s never too late to spread the word on social media, to help out by shopping on

OR by making a donation or volunteering your professional services.

One Love,


PS. Go to the Pushing Daisy Drive Page to learn more about the fundraiser goals and the other ways you can contribute.

Deliberate Creation

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Today’s inspiration comes from Day 200 of Manifest Your Desires: 365 Ways to Make Your Dreams A Reality by Esther and Jerry Hicks. Enjoy!

Deliberate Creation is not about the condition changing and then your finding a better feeling in response to the changed condition. Deliberate Creation is about choosing a thought that feels good when you choose it- which then causes the condition to change. “

A Shout Out To All My Supporters

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A shout out to everyone that has supported the Pushing Daisy Drive thus far. I also want to hail up everyone that has shopped on Amazon from my affiliate link or has read and shared this blog. Your comments and support have truly made this journey worthwhile. Next week, I hope to have more information on how you can be involved in the pre-book launch activities I’m planning in the near future.

Diasy Drive Donors

* David King  * William Scott, Jr.  *Janice Donovan  * Isaac Causey *Sharonda Caldwell  * LaVerne Freemon  * Lumumba Corriette  * Cher Hermschulte  *Camara Barbara Knight

Remember, it’s never too late to spread the word on social media, to help out by shopping on

OR by making a donation or volunteering your professional services.

One Love,


PS. Go to the Pushing Daisy Drive Page to learn more about the fundraiser goals and the other ways you can contribute.

Richie Parker- Manifesting Against All Odds

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Richie Parker is a shining example of what it looks like to Manifest Your Desires against all odds. Born with no hands, he is a successful automotive engineer for Hendrick Motor Sports, who drives his own car! In honor of Richie (and his wonderful parents), I dedicate this Manifest Monday to a true inspiration!

At The Halfway Mark

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Yesterday (the day after Mother’s Day) made 180 days or approximately half a year since my mother’s death. So, we’re down to the last 6 months of the Manifest Your Desires Campaign. Now that I’m off the road and getting back settled here in Mexico for the next six months, things are slowly starting to come together for the book and the travel writing stories.

I’m also happy about the progress that is slowly being made with Phase 1 of the Pushing Daisy Drive. I’m currently in the process of working with a family relative donor to pay off all the lawyer fees and land taxes that are required for the educational center in honor of my mother. The next step will be to pay for the needed start-up foundation and association membership fees.

I’m still in the process of putting together the book launch event. And if all goes well with securing a few well-known prospect partners, I’ll have some great announcements to make about who is on board in the near future (I’ll keep you posted).

Starting next week, I’ll be taking it up a notch and finding more creative ways for you to participate in a way that is worth your while. I’ll also be posting current donors to the campaign weekly to give them a big up and hopefully spark some inspiration.

Remember, it’s never too late to spread the word on social media, to help out by shopping on

OR by making a donation.

One Love,