Conscious Co-Creation: Step 7 (Part 1)

Today’s inspiration comes from Part 1 of Chapter 11 of my e-book, Afraid Of Our Own Shadow: A Manifesto and Guide to Conscious Co-Creation. Enjoy!

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Chapter 11: Conscious Co-Creation: Step 7 (Part 1)

In this chapter, I’ll be sharing the seventh and final step to Becoming a Conscious Co- Creator. Instead of giving you an activity, I’ll be sharing four power actions that are essential to conscious co-creation.

Step #7

Choose What You Want to Co-Create and Be Habitually Happy Until it Happens

Before I get started on Step #7, we’ll do another quick review of the steps we’ve already covered:

Step 1: Know Who and What GOD Is
Step 2: Know Your Intrinsic Worth as an Aspect of Divinity

Step 3: Align Your Person, Your Power, and Your Purpose With the Creator of All That Is
Step 4: Allow Old Charge to Come Up Without Resistance
Step 5: Stay Present With Presence-Releasing the Need for Approval and the Need to Impress
Step 6: Use Genuine Remorse to Take You to Zero Point So You Can Powerfully Declare What You No Longer Want

All the steps leading up to this last step were essentially to prepare you for the simple task of consciously co-creating. Believe it or not, G.O.D and our Guides want to see us happy and fulfilled more than we want it ourselves. When we are in alignment with the first 6 steps and aware of the 4 major pitfalls, then co-creation has a much better chance of actualizing because we don’t get in the way of G.O.D and our Guides.

In Step 3, you created a new self-image by aligning your Person, your Power and your Purpose with the Creator of All There Is. Now it’s time to specifically declare the things you’d like to Have, Be and Do, while being habitually happy until it happens.

The two keys to conscious co-creation are to set goals that you can be happy or feel good about and to keep this emotion of happiness at all costs until it becomes a habit and eventually happens in your life. It doesn’t make sense to set a goal that doesn’t make you feel happy when you think about it. The golden rule here is to start small with goals you can genuinely feel happy about when you think or visualize them in your life.

Here’s another important point:

When you are determining what things you’d like to Have, Be or Do, make sure to do three things:

1. Form the goal as a question
2. Be sure to include how it will make you feel

3. Don’t focus on a specific time or avenue for it to manifest because the unseen realm has ways and means that the     conscious mind knows not of.

So here are a few examples:

“Why am I totally enjoying myself doing all the things I set out to accomplish this month?”

“Why am a feeling total trust and happiness, while meeting all my financial obligations with ease and grace?”

If you really want to get powerful, you can set the goal in the past tense as if it already happened like this:

“How did I have fun gracefully actualizing the funds to attend that retreat, and how did I manage to have a great time meeting such wonderful people and learning so many enlightening things?”

Now I must admit, it took me awhile to have the courage to start co-creating with confidence. My person had all those worries like, “Have I cleared enough old stuff to be successful?” Or, “When will I finally be done with clearing all this old stuff?” Also, there was the disappointment my person felt when things didn’t show up like it wanted. If this may be the case with your person also, then I am going to share four essential power actions that can assist you in boosting your co-creation power…

Words of Wisdom from the Wildflower Daisy

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When I was young, my mother always used to recite some bible verse to get her point across. In fact, she was the most bible quoting women that I knew! Out of all my mother’s bible quotes, my favorite was Matthew 10:16, ” ….be ye therefore wise as serpents and harmless as doves.”

For some reason, this verse has left a lasting impression on how I navigate life. I have been on a quest for knowledge, wisdom and understanding all my life, but I’ve also understood (thanks to Daisy) that with these things comes the responsibility to live a life with integrity as a form of “universal protection.”

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DeBorah

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Richie Parker- Manifesting Against All Odds

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Richie Parker is a shining example of what it looks like to Manifest Your Desires against all odds. Born with no hands, he is a successful automotive engineer for Hendrick Motor Sports, who drives his own car! In honor of Richie (and his wonderful parents), I dedicate this Manifest Monday to a true inspiration!

This Post Is For the Writer In You

I want to share some upcoming free opportunities for all you writers out there:

MAY 9th- National Association of Memoir Writer’s Free All Day Tele-summit
Every season, NAMW gives a free all-day telesummit 10am-4pm PDT to help us with our memoir writing and marketing. The theme for Spring 2014: Angles of View-Writing and Sharing Your Memoir.Every season is always full of helpful tips, inspiration and new contacts and opportunities. There is still time to sign up for it today, and even if you don’t have time to attend, you will be able to download the calls afterwards at no cost. There is nothing to buy. Hope to see you there! You can sign-up here.

May 19th-30: Transformational Author Experience 2014
For the past five years Christine Kloser has been hosting a live on-line event to help aspiring authors with a message to write, publish and promote their book with over 22 hours of free-training (when you attend live or within 48 hrs). The first time I attended, I was blown away by all the information and inspiration I received. Even if you aren’t able to listen to every presentation within the time frame, it is certainly worth signing up when you have 21 bestselling authors, agents, publishers and transformational leader sharing some invaluable information. Hope to see you there too! You can sign-up here.

Pitfall #3 to Conscious Co-Creation

Today’s inspiration comes from Chapter 8 of my e-book, Afraid Of Our Own Shadow: A Manifesto and Guide to Conscious Co-Creation. Enjoy!

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Chapter 8: Pitfall #3 to Conscious Co-Creation

In this chapter, we’ll be covering the third pitfall to Becoming a Conscious Co-Creator

Pitfall #3

Attempting to Co-Create Without Understanding Your Life Cycles

Okay, here is the part in the book where I’d like to do two things. One is clear the bad rap that astrology has been getting these days in this era of “we can create our own reality” and two is to make a shameless plug for my services. So let’s cover number one.

As a collective, we’ve reached a time in our evolution where many scientific breakthroughs have occurred enabling us to better understand the inner working of our minds, our emotions, our DNA and essentially the world. For some, it’s an empowering experience when they realize they can “rewrite the script” that was given to them from their parents, their society, and now even from their DNA.

For a lot of people, life on earth has been experienced as hell and they just want to change it. Subconsciously and for some consciously, they don’t understand how a loving G.O.D would make them suffer through what they’ve been through as part of a Divine Plan and as a backlash, they’ve come to rely more on science for the answers and the code to rewrite this miserable script. They say, “To hell with astrology and all its predetermined BS. That doesn’t apply to me now because I can rewrite my script.” Or they say, “A new day is dawning, God consciousness is within me, and all of that stuff is obsolete or doesn’t apply.”

Yet, I’m here to say that every single action we take in our lives, every experience we’ve had has meaning and is fulfilling a purpose and it’s the purpose and meaning WE give it.

In the movie “Matrix 2,” Neo asks the oracle, “If you already know, how can I make a choice.” She replies, “Because you didn’t come here to make the choice, you’ve already made it. You’re here to try to understand why you made it.”

When we as a collective lost our connection to Godsource, we also lost the connection and awareness between our Higher Self and Lower Self and our conscious mind and our subconscious mind. Understanding this, it becomes evident, that before wanting to go changing any script, we should focus on healing this disconnection. By focusing on understanding what the Creator and our Higher Self were up to before we incarnated here on earth, we unify this disconnection and thus become enlightened. Enlightened to what, you may ask? Enlightened to your whole Self, the unity of our conscious and subconscious mind, which, to me, is the true definition of Self-Love.

In doing this, we will find that up to that point of enlightenment, there was little of nothing that needed changing-only our perception and perspective about it.

Now some of you may be saying, “That’s nice, but I’m getting my ass kicked from my mate.” Or, “I just lost my job and I have nine mouths to feed.” Or, “I didn’t choose to get molested and raped by someone who says they love me. What do you say to this?”

Well first, I say the words from a B.T. Express song, “Do it. Do it. Do it to your satisfied, whatever it is.” And this could be to agree or disagree, to be angry, a victim, or seek revenge, to search for answers and make amends or ultimately to meet your end. It’s all good, because there will eventually come a time when you’ll be satisfied and move on to the next thing. And in my opinion, this is the best and only way we can ever do it.

Second I say, if circumstances have brought you here where you are reading my words, then there is a part of you, somewhere, that is ready to pay a bill that’s due.

So again, before we go rewriting the default programs that govern our existence, we need to understand and appreciate the great perfection that is already at the core of everything, including ourselves AND our experiences. An unknown author once said, “The journey is the dream. All that goes into the journey makes the dream worthwhile.” G.O.D, getting the chance to experience Itself through It’s creation, is the greatest and grandest Heroes or Shero’s Journey of them all.

Now for number two. Here is where I make a shameless plug for my services.

But first, here’s another analogy. Let’s say you don’t know for sure whether your light bill or your phone bill is due this week and you pay the wrong one and your lights get turned off. That can be an inconvenience right?

Well, the reason why understanding you life cycles to make better choices is so important is because it gives you a type of guideline of when certain cosmic bills AND paychecks are due. Or more accurately, can be due, based on your attitude, your perspective, and your actions. Because one man’s bill can be seen as another man’s paycheck and one woman’s paycheck can be seen as another woman’s bill.

Before I say anything else, I just want to share with you my approach to astrology and the Destiny Card system. First of all, you are NOT your card or sign. You are a divine reflection of the Creator and inherently capable of creating a life that includes ANYTHING you desire to co-create. Yet, just as the doctor makes the uniform and not the uniform the doctor, so too the person makes the card or sign and not the card or sign the person. Understanding why you chose a certain life path based on your birthdate brings clarity so that you can capitalize on strengths, minimize weaknesses and tap into the power of who you truly are.

Also, just as a farmer’s knowledge is useless if she doesn’t till the soil, plant the seed, and nurture it, so too is the knowledge gained from astrological consultations useless if one doesn’t apply it in life.

In the Destiny Cards system (an ancient form of astrology and numerology preserved in the ordinary deck of playing cards), the year begins on your birthday and is broken down into seven 52 day periods.

Each one of these seven periods is ruled by a planet. For instance, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, etc. These periods are the same for every year and are specific to your date of birth. For example, my 52 day Jupiter period starts on May 16th of every year. What I know about Jupiter is that it brings my greatest gifts, so I usually begin business ventures at this time. There is a lot more to this fascinating system, but I won’t go any further here. To learn more, you can go to my website Positive Options so that was Pitfall # 3. Next, we’ll be covering the biggie-Pitfall #4

Pitfall #2 to Conscious Co-Creation

Today’s inspiration comes from Chapter 7 of my e-book, Afraid Of Our Own Shadow: A Manifesto and Guide to Conscious Co-Creation. Enjoy!

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Chapter 7: Pitfall #2 to Conscious Co-Creation

In this chapter, we’ll be covering the second pitfall to Becoming a Conscious Co-Creator.

Pitfall #2

Attempting to Co-Create Without Releasing Old Programming

We all want to have positivity in our lives. We want to be positive, think and act positive and create positive things. Yet, there is only one way to make it to the next positive and promising day and that is by going through the night. This natural phenomena of day and night, serves as a simple analogy, here in life to show us that this is and on-going process. This process can lead to more and more good in our lives, in cycles and cycles IF we just allow it to.

Now we’ve already covered some techniques to release old programming in a previous chapter. And we’ve also covered how important it is to let this process run its own course, so I won’t say much more here except for one thing. Beware of the Quick Fix! Here’s another analogy to bring this point home:

Imagine this. Let’s say you are one of those people who now understands the importance of self sufficiency and developing a relationship with Mother Earth. So you made it a priority to buy some land and now you want to grow food so you can eat from your own garden. So there you are one day, working in the yard, learning all this stuff for the first time and along comes Jack or should I say Jackal? Anyway, that’s not important. So he sees you working in the yard and he steps to you and says, “Why are you out here working in the hot sun?” You reply, “Because I want to create a garden I can eat from.” He replies, “Oh, is that it? You want to eat. Oh man, I know a way where you can be eating in no time. You don’t have to worry about digging and planting and breaking your back, then waiting and worrying about the harvest season.” You look up at him and say, “Really?”, curious to know what he has in mind. Then he says, “Yeah, they just opened up a farmer’s market 5 minutes from here. They sell everything and it’s all organic. All you have to do is go and buy what you want. They even accept visa and food stamps!”

Now, if you were really serious about your newly found convictions of establishing a relationship with the Earth and being self sufficient, wouldn’t you look at him sideways? Yet, if you weren’t really serious, you might say, “Weeeell, he’s got a point.”

So, I share this story to say, there are no quick fixes. What I’m sharing with you in this book can be likened to me showing up in your yard that day and saying, “Oh, so you are growing food too! Here, let me share with you what I learned from my almanac about when is the best time to plant that seed.” Or, “I know where you can order the best quality seeds and new garden tools. I also belong to this local first time farmers group that can share lots of tips with you.” Like that. So, again, there are no quick fixes. Okay, that was Pitfall #2. Next, we’ll be covering Pitfall #3.

Your Emotional Guidance System

Today’s inspiration comes from Day 132 of  Manifest Your Desires: 365 Ways to Make Your Dreams A Reality by Esther and Jerry Hicks. Enjoy!

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Once you understand your own Emotional Guidance System, you will never again be confused about where you are in relationship to where you want to be. Also, you will feel, with each thought that you offer, whether you are moving closer to, or further from, your desired outcome. If you are using any other influence as your source of guidance, you will get lost and go off track, for no others understand, as you do, the distance between where you are and where you want to be.

Pitfall #1 to Conscious Co-Creation

Today’s inspiration comes from Chapter 6 of my e-book, Afraid Of Our Own Shadow: A Manifesto and Guide to Conscious Co-Creation. Enjoy!

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Chapter 6: Pitfall #1 to Conscious Co-Creation

In this chapter, we’ll be covering the first pitfall to Becoming a Conscious Co-Creator.

Pitfall #1

Attempting to Co-Create Without Knowing Who We Are

Now we already covered how important it is to know Who and What GOD is and our intrinsic worth as an aspect of Divinity. Believe me when I say that this is crucial to our ultimate success. If you don’t understand your worth, and more importantly, if you don’t really believe and truly know just what you are an expression of, like you know your name or when you have to go to the bathroom, then you can NEVER be a conscious co- creator for long (and I’ll explain what I mean by for long in a minute).

Imagine this. Say you want to plant a mango tree but you don’t know what the seeds look like and someone sold you some apple seeds and told you they were mango seeds. Your person might be shocked and even disappointed when harvest time came and you see apples instead of mangoes growing. Now, was the problem nature’s fault that you didn’t get mangos? Did the process of planting and harvesting let you down? No! The issue was you didn’t know the value or worth or essence of the seed that you bought.

Let’s get back to my comment about not being able to be a conscious co-creator for long without knowing your Intrinsic Divinity.

Since the time that we as a collective lost our connection to Godsource, we have all been a work in progress. This progress and process happens in cycles and cycles. Essentially and ironically, it’s the reason why we are actually even here. So all the things that we’ve ever done to improve ourselves and our position in the world. All the rituals and chants, all the vegan food, nutritional supplements and nanogold, all the meditation and brain entrainment and hypnosis, all the cleansing baths and spiritual transmissions from spiritual healers, all of these things are essential and help us along on our journey, especially if we feel called to them for whatever reason.

Yet, if we think these things give us power, rather than the power being within, they may work for awhile because they are powerful practices, but eventually we have to run into our own limiting beliefs about Who GOD is and Who we are in relationship to this Source, in cycles and cycles. It’s what we signed up for when we incarnated here on Earth.

There’s a line I love in the movie Divine Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood when an old lady gives the main character this advice, “Sooner or later, everybody’s bill comes due.” I’ll talk more about this cyclical “paying of dues” in another pitfall later. Okay, that was Pitfall #1. Next, we’ll be covering Pitfall #2

Getting To Know Daisy- Part 4

Today, I share the fourth and final part of the eulogy that I read for my mother’s funeral, along with my side note sharing the legacy and lasting impression she left on my ex-boyfriend, her ex-roommate and our very good friend Isaac.

Tuesday Tribute

The two most endearing qualities I’ll always remember about my mother are how she unceasingly prayed for those she loved (especially her children) and how she was always passionate and giving in everything she did.

Now both these qualities had a high and low side, like the time when I was in college and she prayed and prayed for me NOT to go to Africa for safety reasons, even though I really wanted to. Or how she was so passionate and giving of advice on how I should live my life- even when it wasn’t asked for.

My mother didn’t leave a financial legacy, but what she did leave was a  foundational one. What I mean by this is that she seeded in me the importance and responsibility of integrating ALL aspects of my person for the fullest and greatest expression of who I chose to be. She taught me that it’s okay to be sweet and sharing, as well as to swing a sword when needed. In this society (and especially for woman), it seems hard for people to accept strength and compassion in the same person. We are either strong and ruthless or compassionate and a doormat. All her life, my mother strove to integrate both, and I believe her health suffered as a result of this.

When I apprenticed in acupuncture, I learned that when a person is deficient in yang energy, they need to be cooled down (cold) and when a person is deficient in yin energy, they need to be warmed up (hot). Yet, the most dangerous condition is what my teacher, Dr. Ken Wright, called “flip flop.” That is when a person alternates between hot and cold. He gave a great analogy of what happens to a paper clip when you consistently bend it back and forth. It breaks!

For my mother, you were either in or out with her, on her good side or on her bad side, and she wore all her emotions on her sleeve for the world to see. She was fond of saying, “You can call me a lot of things, but I’m not a hypocrite.” This is so true of Daisy because she would let you know exactly where you stood. The truth is, because she was so compassionate and giving from her heart, she felt and reacted to the sting of seeming betrayal and the hurt of ungratefulness more deeply than others. In the end, going back and forth in these extremes was the ultimate blow to her health.

On Thursday, November 14, 2013, Daisy Elizabeth Teresa King Bellony was called home to her God. She will join her mother, who also died on Thursday, November 14, 56 years ago. I would like to close this eulogy in my mother’s own words taken verbatim from a journal entry she made on Friday, February 10, 2011:

I am grateful for life and the love of God. I am grateful for all the blessings I experienced in the past days especially. I am grateful for traveling mercies. I desire that the Holy Spirit guide me in all things. I desire health, happiness and divine guidance for my children Moleto, Gerald, Richard and Deborah. I desire guidance in starting this mission that I so dearly esteem to bring souls to Christ and at the same time contribute to health and healing of the nation. I give thanks. So mote it be. Amen, Amen and Amen!

Side note:

Tribute: From Isaac Causey- Good Soil
It took me a couple of days to process that my good friend, adopted mom, personal nutritionist and life-saver had transcended to a higher realm. While I originally felt sad, I then realized that SEED becomes more powerful when put into the ground. Like any seed which appears to have no life, Daisy E. Bellony will blossom into a useful spiritual tree, providing nutrients (source of growth), shade (comfort) and sustainability to many. This is evident from what she toiled on Earth- good soil (children, grandchildren, nieces, nephews, relatives and friends). Through us, the love, hope, joy and faith she prepped, groomed and nurtured in the physical will produce hundred-fold in the lives of people throughout the Caribbean and the United States.

As a child, I had these images of God- a big untouchable face in the sky that was too important to approach. Life’s journeys and revelations taught me that God actually comes to Earth in the form of a humbled, helpless baby, who is at the mercy of humans. Indeed, God is All-Powerful, Almighty and Omnipresent. However, God reveals Himself through common, ordinary people who take extraordinary steps of faith. Momma Daisy is one of those people who obeyed the call of Great Work when she saw humanity’s need and heard the Father’s order. As a follower of Jesus, she simply did what Jesus did- help the poor, counsel the trouble-minded, heal the sick, comfort the homeless and weary.

God is Spirit. The Powerful One does not have hands and feet. God needs people as much as people need God. Daisy answered God’s call on several levels- a trailblazing Caribbean woman in the medical field, a devoted church and family woman, a consummate professional, a brilliant business mind and an intellect with advanced degrees.

Now, Daisy has no more hands and feet. She is a seed in search of good soil. She needs us more than ever to continue the work she inherited from Jesus- feeding the hungry, counseling the trouble-minded, healing the sick, comforting the homeless and weary, and helping the poor.

Conscious Co-Creation: Step 5

Today’s inspiration comes from Chapter 5 of my e-book, Afraid Of Our Own Shadow: A Manifesto and Guide to Conscious Co-Creation. Enjoy!

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Chapter 5: Conscious Co-Creation: Step 5
In this chapter, I’ll be sharing the fifth step to Becoming a Conscious Co-Creator and as always, I’ll have an activity for you at the end.

Step #5
Stay Present With Presence, Releasing the Need for Approval and the Need to Impress

Before I get started on Step 5, we’ll do another quick review:
Step 1: Know Who and What GOD Is.
Step 2: Know your Intrinsic Worth as an Aspect of Divinity
Step 3: Align Your Person, Your Power, and Your Purpose With the Creator of All That Is
Step 4: Allow Old Charge to Come Up Without Resistance

When we truly realize that we are an aspect of Divinity experiencing Itself through Its creation, life takes on a totally different tone. There are many reason why in the old paradigm, this knowledge of Who and What God Is and our relationship to Divinity, has been kept hidden from the masses by the societal structures and authorities of the day.

Now, we are birthing a NEW paradigm which is based on revisiting and uncovering the ancient teachings and making them applicable for our current times. With this new consciousness that is flooding the planet comes an exciting and new responsibility. In a lot of ways, it can be seen as our greatest freedom encapsulated in our greatest challenge.

Khalil Gibran, author of the famous book The Prophet is quoted for saying, “Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding.” So, what is this great challenge that I speak of? In a nutshell, it’s this:

Seeking Energy From Another Person or Thing Rather Than Godsource

Because we have spent so much time being disconnected to our God source, life on earth has become a place where we struggle (consciously or unconsciously) to gain our energy from another person or thing. Most of us were never even taught that we actually CAN, tap into our inner power as our main source of energy.

Here’s a good analogy:
Did you know that in 1896, Henry Ford built his first automobile to run on pure ethanol, stating it was a cleaner, cheaper, better fuel for automobiles than gasoline? Yet, it was John D. Rockefeller, owner of Standard Oil, who successfully funded lobbyist to push Congress to pass the Prohibition laws that made alcohol illegal and thus began his monopoly of fueling gasoline run cars. If this seems hard to believe, do your own research and you’ll see.

Yet, I only share this to bring home the point that there are and always has been, other positive options for getting our energy, rather than how we were raised to get it from another person or thing. And what do I actually mean by getting energy from another person or thing? Let me break it down.

In the old paradigm, we tell ourselves, “If I can just get someone to love me and that I can truly love, I’ll be alright.” Or, “If I can just get the approval of my peers or impress my boss enough, then I’ll have emotional and financial security.” In the old paradigm, every action is taken with the need for approval or the need to impress. And why do we do this? For one simple reason and that is to gain the energy of another. Because think of it, if we didn’t need the energy of others, would we even bother with the song and dance? No!

In the new paradigm, the goal is to realize that energy comes from connecting to Godsource via the act of loving ourselves. When we embrace our inner family- the inner child, the inner warrior, the inner nurturer, the inner sage and so forth, THEN we are in a position to tap into our Godsource and truly be intimate with another.

Don’t get me wrong. Intimacy with another is a great thing, but we truly can’t be intimate without vulnerability, and vulnerability is the gift we give to another only when we truly love ourselves. The main reason we are afraid to be vulnerable is because if we are and the person doesn’t reciprocate, then our persons feel completely and utterly demolished- that is if we don’t love ourselves enough. Because if we did love ourselves, although it might hurt when love isn’t reciprocated, we still would have a steady stream of love and energy coming from within.

So, how does this all relate to Step 5? In order to explain this fully, I’d like to share another story with you from my personal life:

Back in 2002, my friend Kevin Jackson put on a major conference in Atlanta called The Gathering of Masters of which I helped to coordinate. There were over 15 powerful speakers lined up from, Dick Gregory, Sobonfu Some, Dr. Charles Finch, Dr. Delbert Blair, Hakim Bey, Dr. Phil Valentine, and Dr. Jewel Poolkrum, just to name a few. With all the big names also came some big egos and needless to say, as the coordinator, with only one volunteer, I was stressed out between meeting the needs of the speakers, the vendors, the attendants, and keeping my sanity.

The first day, there wasn’t even time enough for me to even have a lunch break. By the end of the day, I had reached a breaking point and I decided to go completely within as a coping mechanism. I found myself standing in a trance during the last lecture, in a meditation that lasted nearly four hours, long after everybody had left the hall and stopped trying to get me to respond to anything. I lost complete track of time. I ended up going deep into my heart space where it was told to me, “Be present with presence. Release the need for approval and the need to impress.” A deep sense of presence fell over me in that moment and I entered the space of my heart. I began to use the whole conference as my homeopathic pill. I was able to see, through being present, all the ways my actions were done with the need to get the approval of others and my need to impress, AND I began to see how it was all connected to the areas of my life where my inner family wasn’t nurtured.

I began to see just how deep a gap there was within me that wasn’t being fulfilled. I also began to really see the motivations behind some of my actions. Even my actions to serve, while altruistic, also had an edge of wanting to be important and associated with these “masters,” but at the same time being afraid to shine my light. This type of honesty was a hard pill to take, yet in a way it was liberating to see how much the need for approval and the need to impress were ruling my life.

So, when we stay present in the moment, in our bodies, with presence and the intention of seeing how many of our actions are based on us getting energy from another rather than relying on Source- it’s a liberating experience.

As a matter of fact, if you really want to know my truth, I believe if we were to just do this and no other practices, eventually it would free us to become the immortals we were destined to be at this time! Okay, so with that said, here is your activity for this step.

Activity for Step 5:

Task #1
For 5 minutes when you wake up and for 5 minutes before going to bed, when you are eating, when you go to the bathroom, when you are waiting, when you are traveling and whenever else it is possible, just center into your body and feel yourself there in the present moment. Focus on feeling different parts of your body at random from your feet, all the way to your head with complete presence. This exercise helps you to build muscles so you’ll have a better chance of remembering to stay in your own energy field when you are talking to others, especially someone you consider “difficult” or “desirable.” Also, before opening your mouth to speak to anyone take a deep breath and inwardly thank the person for being there.

Task #2
Throughout the day, whenever you find yourself slipping out of the present moment and losing your presence, just say, “Out of all the things I have to do, all the things I love to do and all the things I was destined to do, nothing is more important than what I am doing right now.” Take a deep breath and focus inwardly in your body.

Task #3
I learned this practice from a technique called Access Consciousness, founded by Gary Douglas and I find it to be very useful. It’s based on the premise that most of the thoughts that come into our minds are not even ours. They are part of the collective consciousness and they only become “ours” when we decide to react or identify with them. So as the first line of defense AND healing for the collective, anytime a limiting or fearful thought comes up, ask yourself, “Whose thought is this?” If you get a sense that it isn’t originating from your person, then you say, “Return to sender with loving consciousness attached.” By returning it to the sender, with loving consciousness, you are not only strengthening yourself, but you are also helping to do your part in clearing the collective consciousness as well.

So that was Step #5. Next, we’ll be covering the four (4) pitfalls to Becoming a Conscious Co-Creator and the last pitfall is a biggie!